On consideration of being
New Year is traditionally for me a good time to have sudden bouts of existential doubt at unexpected moments, like when you are doing a thing, or when you are looking at a cat or something like that.
You may all of a sudden find yourself wondering "Why are all my molecules arranged so? In this strangely particular yet arousing configuration? Why do I have those long bits and round bits? I am Standing Up. I am using my little terror holes to ingest the light that is reflected from that big thing there with the squiggles on it. Wow. A train. An actual train that goes and is all metally and long. How charming."
You might even become suddenly and painfully aware of the fact that there are also billions of other piles of molecules out there doing the same strange and pointless things as you, and that some of them are having these same thoughts.
Likely many more of them are actually just concentrating on the things that they are doing, wrapped up safely in the invulnerable and wonderfully warm conviction that what they are doing is quite useful or important, or at least necessary.
Looking Up is a weird thing isn't it.
This is all quite interesting and fun until you start to forget the thing you are supposed to be doing, like breathing out, or, standing up, or not shooting, or trying to work out why you were howling last night.
So try to rein it in a bit. It's best not to dwell on anything too serious until we have some definite idea about things, or we are all dead or something.
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